Let’s all just chill the F out here for a minute.

As a stubborn Type-A with a penchant for overdoing some things, it’s hard for me to take some unplanned time off even when it’s for my own good. But every once in a while something comes along that allows me to break schedule and only freak out mildly. This happened on Tuesday when the words “potential stress fracture” were uttered to me. Ahhhh shit.

Monday was a rest day. I had a sore throat, which freaked me out. But after some rest it went away and by Tuesday I was back to normal-ish.

Tuesday I had planned to run before my 8:30am physio appointment, but since I was feeling a bit under the weather I decided to be smart and get some extra sleep. I figured that if by chance I felt better (sickness and leg-wise) after work I would go. Apparently I forgot how brutal physio can be, and this was much worse than getting my hipped worked on last summer.

First she poked around and freaked me out by uttering the words “stress fracture” since the pain in my shins is so localized. But since the spot is more on the muscle than the bone, she figured to treat me for a couple sessions before sending me for a bone scan. She used the ultrasound machine on my shins, and since that caused no pain my PT was more confident I was fracture-free.

There. That's what hurts.

There. That’s what hurts.

Then we boiled my legs.

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And then she cupped my shins to loosen up the muscles prior to the IMS (aka needling). Which felt not bad.

And then went at it with the needles. On the top of my legs it hurt and felt some “grabbing” of the needle. But nothing could have prepared me for the flip-flopping feeling the needling produced in my calves. It was intense. So much that she had to hold down my legs to prevent them from twitching. Gross.

(I found an IMS video that I thought I would post, but watching it made me want to barf so I won’t force you to do the same. Unless you want to)

After 10 minutes of the electrode machine I was sent on my way with an appointment booked for next week. Walking was painful, but driving to work (in a standard) was worse. It felt like someone was stabbing me in the calves. No running tonight. Just some online shopping and hip flexor massages courtesy of Ashes the cat.

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Followed by a warm cat lap compress.

Wednesdsay my calves still felt pretty tight and I felt pressure in the front of my shin, so I opted for another day of non-running and instead had a 30 min elliptical session with some easy legs (focusing on lower leg and hip stabilizers) and core. I iced pretty religiously all evening.

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What is this godforsaken contraption?

Thursday I rocked compression socks and ice packs at work.

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Thursday also marked the opening day of Lululemon’s Seawheeze Half Marathon registration. For about a year, Jamie, Chelsea and I had our sights set on this race as their first half marathon so we were obviously pretty excited about it. And, when 10:00am PST rolled around, we jumped on the seawheeze site to register. Along with what seems to be the majority of people doing the same, we weren’t able to because the website could not handle the amount of people trying to access it, and is down until further notice. Obviously we were annoyed that this put a hiccup in our plans, and we still don’t know if we’ll be able to get a spot. But the massive twitter outrage sparked by this…. ok guys seriously (look up #seawheeze on twitter if you’re curious). We all obviously want to run this, but let’s take a step back down to reality. Yes, it’s a big goal for most people, and yes, it’s a great time part of a fun weekend. But is it really worth freaking the fuck out about something you have no control over? I’m sure Lululemon is doing the best they can with what they’ve got, same as the rest of us. I don’t know about you, but I’d prefer to reserve my energy and emotions for something that will have a bit more bearing on my life. It’s not life or death here people. It’s just a race. Take a deep breath, come up with a plan B, and maybe next time don’t have so much riding on one single event. It’s all going to be ok.

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Friday found out that Seawheeze registration will reopen Monday, Feb 3, but over 80% are still open so we stand a chance at getting in. I did some strength intervals at lunch. Purely Twins have some great quick workouts to do at home or the gym (depending on equipment available), and they also provide loads of food food advice!

That evening Jamie, Chelsea and I had big plans to go to the gym, but ended up eating burritos, drinking beer and playing board games instead.

Saturday I went up to Sunshine with my mom to ski around on my own while she was in a ski lesson. It was a beautiful day.

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The day got a bit more exciting than anticipated when my mom had a fall and twisted her ankle. Thinking it was a sprain but wanting to be sure, we went to the hospital in Banff to get it checked out. It wasn’t a sprain, but instead a talus fracture.

Since X-Rays will only show so much, she needs a CT scan to determine how far the fracture extends into the bone (which is today). Hopefully it’s minor!

Sunday I managed to get out for a 8 mile run. I played around with some KT Tape and taped my shins for the first time, and success! I definitely didn’t feel as much pressure and the muscles in my lower legs felt as though they were firing correctly again.

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Moral of the week? Sometimes things happen that we can’t anticipate, and usually these things are pretty inconvenient. I generally believe that when these inconveniences happen you have three options:

1) Make a change.

2) Remove yourself from the situation.

3) Accept it.

Notice how bitching and moaning isn’t an option? That’s because it doesn’t solve anything and just annoys everyone around you. Now take a deep breath. It’s all going to be ok!

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Fifty/Eighty

Last week started off with zero shin pain. ZERO. For that I’d like to thank skiing and my 1400s. Unfortunately that didn’t last, but that whole situation seems to be getting better and I’m finally taking a bit more action in fixing it, including a physio appointment this week. Ain’t nobody got no time for shin pain.

Monday was a rest day and thank god for that, because it polar vortex-ed outside (cold, snowy, windy). I hung out at the office all day, compression socks on for good measure, just anxious to run. This is a good sign. If your brain isn’t into it, your body will have a real tough time following.

Tuesday the polar vortex turned into a chinook and I had a fantastic 7.5mile/12km run after work. Relatively painless and back in the low 9:00/mile pace that I like to keep my easy runs at. I ran in my Adios but found that the stiff forefoot wasn’t too friendly on my shins, but my achilles was behaving (thanks high ramp angle).

Wednesday morning all the snow that melted had turned into ice and made for a treacherous and slow run, with some niggling shin pain (again, sigh) despite switching back to my 1400s. At one point I fell hard onto my ass. It would’ve been funny if there was anyone around watching. That night I convinced Dan to join me on a short 5km run. He wasn’t amused by the puddles and ice. My shins didn’t feel too bad while I ran, but when I would stop for a light or if I had to walk across some ice, they would seize right up. I spent the rest of the evening with ice packs tucked into knee high socks, eating pasta and watching Futurama.

Thursday‘s tempo run (5.5 miles total) was an improvement on last week. I ran it on the treadmill at the same pace (~8:00/m) but it felt much less deathly. But a lot more sweaty. I tried for a 3 mile recovery run in the evening, but my shins were back being sore and due to the thaw/freeze cycle that’s been happening every day here it was ridiculously icy. So I made it 2.5 miles. Meh!

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Attractive. I know.

Friday‘s run was pretty uneventful. Just over 5 miles just under 10/mile (still navigating around ice). Use salt on your sidewalks, people!

Saturday I ran a beautiful sunny and warm 20k with some friends, avg 9:27 pace. Then that afternoon some friends and I had High Tea at the Fairmont Palliser Hotel for Jamie’s birthday! It was delicious and fun.

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Sunday I ran just under 7 miles at 9:24/mile which felt incredibly slow. Afterwards I went for a much needed massage. Shane, my massage guy, worked on my glutes, lower back, and informed me that the source of my shin pain is my soleus. Getting them massaged made me want to cry. He also showed me how to relieve my back and hip tightness through massaging my own hip flexors. He was great. If you’re in Calgary, go check out Leela Eco Spa. Awesome yoga classes (I’ve been going there for a while) and apparently great massages too.

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Pre-massage bathroom picture because I like this shirt and I’m in a good mood.

So this marks the completion of my very first 50 mile/80km week, officially the most weekly mileage I have ever done! I’m pretty happy with this little milestone. I have one week left in the “base building” phase of my training and I’m hoping to get in about 55 miles, but I’ll survive if it’s less than that.

I had a physio appointment today to see what can be done for my shins/soleus (details next post). If that doesn’t help, I’m buying some freakin’ Hokas.

Goodbye, comfort zone

Wanting to take my running to the next level, I knew that I would have to take my training up a notch, hence the massive mileage I’ve been discussing the past few posts.

When I was wondering why my legs felt like shit last week, I looked back into my training log for some insight. What I discovered is that typically in peak training prior to a marathon I would reach 40-50 (but closer to 40) miles a week with my highest recorded mileage being 48. I want to take that up into the 60s, and really one of the things that is freaking me out is my upcoming super long tempo runs. I’ve been slogging out these long runs, but I’m a bit nervous about having to bring speed into the equation.

Calgary is pretty.

Calgary is pretty.

I’m also having some on and off issues with my shins despite switching to a trail shoe with higher cushion. At the end of the week I had a bit of rest and ran in my New Balance 1400s which are a bit squishier and had no issues. The weather is supposed to be pretty good this week so I’m looking forward to running in non-trail shoes that I know don’t hurt me. Trying to push mileage while being hurt is a pain in the ass.

Cat snuggles and new Oiselle hoodies make sore shins feel better. It's science.

Cat snuggles and new Oiselle hoodies make sore shins feel better. It’s science.

I revisited a few of my favorite blog posts to get inspiration on getting tough and to allow me to trust that I can get through these workouts. I have to remember that this isn’t supposed to be easy! I have to dig deep and actually push myself. I know sometimes I have a bad tendency to say I want to work hard, but when it comes to working hard I freak out a bit. Is this normal? Probably? Anyone? But anyways, I think part of the “achievement” is pushing past that final hesitation in the moment and really going for it. Putting it all out on the line. It’s fucking scary! But also made me realize that even if I don’t meet my time goal in Vancouver, I will know what I’m capable if I push myself that much further and keep building from there.

Gettin' fit, in da gym.

Taking gym selfies as part of a work contest. I don’t typically do this, I swear.

All nerves aside, I’m actually really excited. It’s like trying a new cake recipe. You throw all the ingredients together in the right order, put in some elbow grease and make sure you’re stirring it all together correctly (not too much, not too little). Then you stick it in the oven, hoping your oven is set to the right temperature and your timer is set. Then you wait. With any luck you have a cake that’s perfectly moist. If not, you have to go back and adjust the recipe.

How’s that for a metaphor? I totally thought of it myself. Now I want cake 😦

Give this to me

(source)

Speaking of cake, let’s take a moment and talk about the insatiable hunger monster currently residing within me. No, I’m not preggo. Just running at what once was peak mileage. It’s only going to get worse. Hooolyyyy. Like every other person out there at this time of year, I’m trying to get back eating a bit healthier and focus on nutrient dense foods instead of sheer quantity to help me recover between runs.

That’s it for this week! I’ll leave you with something that kills me every time I look at it. I apologize to my friends who’ve seen this a hundred times (in the last 4 days) already.

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I hope I start feeling like a space goat during my runs soon.

 

 

Running and Holidays and stuff.

Happy New Year everyone!I hope everyone enjoyed their holidays, or at the very least survived.

Mine were good. For the first time in several years I did not leave the city and it was great. Traveling during the holidays can be stressful, so it was nice to stay put and focus on my family, my boyfriend and get caught up in running.

The "chocolate shelf" in my fridge. There is also a cookie shelf.

The “chocolate shelf” in my fridge. There is also a cookie shelf.

I’m currently still base building phase of my training program, and taking nearly two weeks off due to illness put me behind in my mileage so I decided to extend this phase a bit to make up for it. Luckily I had some time off of work over the holidays so I took advantage of the opportunity of running in the daylight.

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I’m up to ~40 miles (~65km) a week at the moment, and my legs are definitely feeling it. This is what my peak mileage has been in previous training cycles, and I’m still aiming to add another 20 miles onto it. My appetite has skyrocketed and will not leave me alone. Last weekend I would’ve done terrible things for food, especially carbs. Luckily my fridge is still full of holiday treats so crisis was adverted. I have to get used to carrying more food with me too work so I don’t end up gnawing on a coworkers arm or something equally as regrettable (like eating leftover chicken from a company lunch, which may or may not have happened).

Post Xmas lights still up make me happy.

Post Xmas lights still up make me happy.

Although when it's -30C I do this instead.

Although when it’s -30C I do this instead.

I’ve had some shin/ankle/Achilles pain that is causing me to worry, but I am hoping that I nailed down the issue(s):

1) It’s been snowing quite a bit and while many pathways and sidewalks are clear, a lot are just snowy enough that you slide around a bit more than normal putting strain on my ankles, calves and knees.

2) Because it’s been snowing a lot, I’ve been wearing my Saucony Trail Kinvaras. I’m pretty adapt to running in the road Kinvaras, but the trail version has much less cushioning making it more of a trail version of the A5 (racing flat) than a Kinvara (the Peregrin is a more accurate trail version of the Kinvara, but we don’t sell them at the running store I work at). I had hoped that gradually building up my mileage in the TKs would allow me to adapt to the lighter shoe, but alas, I think I have not. Shin pain is typically indicative of inadequate cushioning in the shoe (for that particular person), so I decided to suck it up and buy something different for my >10k runs. I went with the Adidas Kanadia 5. They have more too them without being too bulky and heavy, and at $114 the price point is pretty good.

Dear shoes. Please save my legs!

Dear shoes, please save my legs

I tried out the Kanadias on the weekend, and although my pace was, uh, conservative, my legs felt much less fatigued come rest day. Which is today. I can still feel a bit of a niggle in my left Achilles but I don’t have that same general ache that I had before. I’m curious to see how my body will adapt in the next few weeks. I’m hoping that if I keep consistent in my training, diligent on the injury prehab (rolling, exercises), and well fed I can make some decent improvement.

Another exciting thing to note: last weekend my mom and I went to watch a World Cup Freestyle Ski competition at Canada Olympic Park. For those of you who may not know, I competed in this sport for the better part of my youth/teen years and it still holds a special place in my heart. It was exciting to watch and neat to see how the sport has evolved the past 10.5 years since my “retirement”.

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cold weather = slushy wine

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I definitely could not have skied this.

So there’s an update for y’all! I’m going to try to be more consistent now that the holidays are over and I have some focus in my running life again, so brace yourself for more tales of winter running and rabid appetites!

So What’s Next?

As you can probably guess with my lack of posting, I’m in a bit of a post-marathon lull. A recovery mode, off season, from both running and writing about running. Believe it or not, I actually have quite a bit going on besides running in my life (strange, I know) but I won’t get into it because this is a running blog not a every-detail-of-Victoria’s-life blog.

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Very Canadian, non-running activities

Very Canadian, non-running activities

It only took a couple weeks to recover after the OK Marathon, then I went on vacation (only running once), then since then I’ve been casually building up my mileage again. By casual I mean I have a plan I’m following, but I try not to beat myself up for missing runs or adjusting it.

So this “plan” of mine. Let’s discuss it. I’m currently working on my NAASFP Certification to become a running coach, and using my new found knowledge to my advantage. I decided that instead of doing a typical 16 week training cycle for a specific race, I’m looking at my next big race as part of a whole year cycle called a macrocycle. This macrocycle is then broke up into shorter mesocycles focusing on specific elements of fitness. Then each mesocycle is broken up into microcycles, which are a week long and within that week I have a variety of workouts. (You may recall that I did something similar in my last training cycle, but this time it’s a larger cycle and I know more about what I’m doing)

Disclaimer: Please keep in mind that this is my training schedule. I (sort of) know what works for me and I’m ok with this experimenting with my training in this way. By chatting about it I am by no means saying that you should follow this plan. Do what’s right for you. I should also note that if you have some experience with these sorts of plans, feel free to chime in and provide advice. I am all ears.

Macrocycle

So looking at my one year cycle from post OK-marathon, that’s mid-October 2013 to mid-October 2014. This year is broken up in to the following mesocycles: Recovery (3 weeks), Aerobic Capacity Training (8 weeks), Strength building (4 weeks), Speed Training (4 weeks), Peak/Taper/Competition (8 weeks)

I know that doesn’t fill up the whole year, but I’m leaving things open after two key races depending on performance.

Mesocycles

Recovery

Following the race, I had a three week recovery period, finishing with a one week vacation that I replaced all running with horse riding, eating, drinking and walking around Toronto with pals.

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Niagara Falls!

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Gorge-ous

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I’m on a horse.

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Some droogs on Halloween

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Makeshift airbnb nail salon 

 

Aerobic

I am currently in the middle of my eight week aerobic capacity training cycle. I am aiming on getting my mileage back up and not worrying too much about pace but trying to incorporate some tempo runs. We just had a big winter storm with temperatures in the -30’s and it’s Christmas season, so mainly I’m trying to stay consistent and not just eat ALL THE COOKIES.

this is what happens when you run in -30C (oof)

this is what happens when you run in -30C (oof)

This typically happens after a cold run. Sweet nectar of the Winter Ale <3

The cure? The sweet nectar of Granville Island Winter Ale ❤

I am a big advocate of strength training, I’ve amped up the leg and core work in my routines. Since I’m not really running fast I’m taking the opportunity to get the legs strong so I can kick some ass in the upcoming cycles that will require that strength.

Strength

In the next cycle (starting around New Years, how timely), I will reduce the amount of leg work I’m doing in the gym and substitute that with more hills, stairs and tempo runs. I’ll keep increasing my mileage but not as drastically.

Mini Competition Cycle

I am running the Austin Half Marathon in February, in conjunction with visiting my cousin (whom I roped into running the 10k). One week each: taper, race, recovery.

Speed

Similar to strength, but I’ll substitute the stairs for the track (thank god) and faster tempo runs.

Competition

This is where things get fun and it’s time to announce my A-Goal:

May 4, 2014

(from http://www.bmovanmarathon.ca)

Vancouver Marathon <3:35:00

I’ve got 15 minutes to shave off my time, and based on past performance, I think I can make that happen.

I digress. So four weeks out from the race I’ll have two peak weeks where I pull everything together. High miles and fast finish long runs. Two weeks out I will taper. Then I will race.

Four weeks later I will try two things that I have never done before: run two marathons a month apart, and run a marathon in my own city.

June 1, 2014

(from http://www.calgarymarathon.com)

So… we’ll see how that goes. I have no expectations.

The rest of the year will be a work in progress depending on Van Marathon. I would really reeeeaaalllllllyyyy like to qualify for Boston 2015. Morgan is running it. We want to run it together. So if I don’t make it in Van, I will find a race in mid August to try again. If I make it, I will spend my summer doing whatever the hell I feel like. 10k? Halfs? ULTRA?! WHO KNOWS. Hopefully more trail running. The running world will be my oyster. Maybe I’ll spend my summer drinking beer and floating down the river in a raft (providing the river isn’t a jerk this year).

Speaking of half marathons, August I will have the honor of pacing Jamie, Chelsea, Amber and Tiffany (hopefully?) for their first half marathon! We’re running the Lululemon Seawheeze Half in Vancouver so we’ll more than likely have an epic girls BC road trip bookending that race. Can’t wait. 2014 is going to rule.

What are your goals for 2014?

2013 Okanagan Marathon – 1 Week Out

OK 1

It’s almost time to do that thing again.

Last week went well, leaving me feeling fast and relaxed. The taper crazies haven’t reared their ugly heads (yet), which is unusual since I’m typically panicking by this point about every little ache and pain, and worrying that I haven’t trained enough/too much/haven’t tapered correctly/whatever. I have been having little flashes of “oh shit, what is going to come of this race?” but then I remember that I relinquished my lofty goals and I’m just going out there and doing what I love to do for (hopefully way less than) four hours.

Monday – Easy 3m/5k with Jamie

She didn’t feel like running, but I made her. She thanked me later. 😉

Tuesday – Rest

Wednesday – 4 x 800 on the treadmill (more like dreadmill) + yoga

Since I’m convinced that the treadmill doesn’t provide as good of a workout as running on the track does, I pushed the pace for a 6:43-6:58/mile pace for the repeats. I remembered the days of being excited about running 8:00/mile during speedwork on the ‘mill and felt good about myself.

Thursday – Rest

Friday – Easy 3m/5k with Jamie and Tiff

It was a warm evening and a beautiful run. Aside from having a stuffy nose every time I head out (I think due to the falling leaves), fall running is not bad.

Saturday – 6 miles of Cruise Intervals

I may have mentioned this before, but cruise intervals are a type of tempo run. They are a bit faster than tempo pace, but a more relaxed pace and longer interval than speedwork. The idea is to maintain a moderately hard pace but not push too fast.

My workout summary: 1 mile warm up, 1 mile @ 8:01, 3 x 0.75 mile @ 7:59, 8:03, 8:00 with 0.25 mile recovery, 1 mile cool down.

Afterwards I felt nauseous (I blame the Vietnamese food I ate on Friday) and suffered aching legs and head due to the Chinook winds that blew through.

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warm winds, big pain.

Sunday – 6.2m/10km Long Run @ 8:56/m pace (time 55:27)

A nice fall morning run on a hilly course. I felt relaxed and strong, and I’m happy with my pace. I had another flashback to my first 10k race at 16, and I finished in about 1:15 and I thought I was going to die. It felt like the hardest thing I’ve ever done. And now, I can pound out the same distance in 20 minutes less at a relaxed pace. Very cool.

Other things that happened this week:

Took Chelsea and Jamie to an art show.

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I never realize how tall I actually am until I am pictured with normal-height people.

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Got new shoes for Sunday (I know, I know, “no new shoes before a race” but this is my third pair of Adios plus I did all last weeks runs in them so they’re not THAT new plus they are purple).

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Finally got back into my parkade! It had to be completely redone after the flood. No more street parking for me!

Shiny new parkade and my dirty car.

Shiny new parkade and my dirty car.

Spent some quality time with the cat.

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What I learned from Diana Nyad, and the 2013 Okanagan Marathon is 2 Weeks Away! – Taper Time

OK 2

So with my next race looming on the horizon, I take the necessary turn into taper-ville. I was also sick earlier last week so I didn’t run much at all. Let’s blow past through the training (ahem, the two runs I DID do), and talk about something else that I’ve wanted to write about for a while.

Monday – Wednesday

Sick. Didn’t run or do much of anything.

Thursday – 6 mile Tempo Run

1 mile warm up and cool down, with 4 miles in the low 8:00/m range. I felt good and I was pleased.

Friday – Strength

Saturday – 9.1 mile Long Run

Average pace of 9:38/mile, fast finish the last two miles (8:26, then 9:00 because I was running through downtown and had to stop at lights).I started out kind of cranky, but I eventually pulled my head of my ass and had a good run.

Sunday – Walking

My Mom and I traveled a little bit out of the city for the afternoon to visit the Leighton Art Centre. We wandered the grounds surrounding it and it made for a beautiful fall day.

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Back when my hip was being a troublemaker and I wasn’t running much and my confidence in this race was shrinking, my mom had sent me an article about Diana Nyad when she completed her swim as the first person to cross the channel between Cuba and Florida without the aid of the shark cage. Being injured yet still determined to heal and not give up on my marathon goals, I needed to keep inspired and dreaming.

This story is inspiring not only because of the great feat she achieved, but of the fact that she tried multiple times and failed and yet did not give up. She told a reporter for the NY Times:

“The Cuba swim is the greatest endurance feat in human history, but if anyone can do it, I can”

And you know what? She did. At 62. After failing four times and braving jelly fish and sharks. If that doesn’t show dedication and determination, I don’t know what does.

I know that personally I get discouraged if I don’t achieve my goals, and spiral into the negative mental talk of “ohhh I can’t do it why do I bother trying blahblahblah” (cry me a river).

The majority of us are not natural athletes or runners. Some have a bit more natural skill than others, but it’s the Diana Nyad drive inside that will bring us to, and past, our goals.

“I’ve never wanted anything so badly, and I’ve never tried so hard.”

– after failing to swim between the Bahamas to Florida at age 28 due to a storm

With that kind of mind set you will never be too old/too female/too whatever to be the best possible version of yourself. Make it happen.

The true, raw grit that this (and other sports) required is not something viewed as traditionally “feminine” in our society. Even the strong girls in Nike ads with ample and muscular glutes and thighs are still shown as flawless beings and are not an exact representation of all athletic women out there.

Don’t get me wrong. All these women look great. But you don’t have to look this way to be fit. (from http://outsidethematch.blogspot.ca)

What they don’t show is the chafing (that sometimes occurs in the most awkward of spots) from running a marathon. The salt encrusted skin from sweating. The jellyfish stings and swollen lips from open water swimming. The sock and short tan lines. The blisters. Doing incredible things isn’t always “pretty”, and why do we feel like we owe it to society to be pretty anyways? Life isn’t pretty. It’s tough and messy, and if women weren’t able to “handle” the tough and messy, we wouldn’t have the reproductive systems that we have (am I right?). Yet apparently we have not moved past the point where we don’t believe women should do something as ghastly as sweat and poop.

While digesting all this food for thought, I considered my own role in society as a female runner, and what that means for my own identity. And I’ve come up with this:

I love the sport. I love riding on the edge of pushing too hard and just hard enough, and knowing I have the ability to come back from it. I have scabs, scars, tattoos and callouses. I am not a porcelain doll, meant to look youthful and virginal, holding onto vanity and purity tightly yet delicately (because women are not meant to exert force) for the rest of my life. Because why? Pictures can fade or be lost, but memories and experiences and the glory of achieving your goals no matter how un-pretty it gets will stay with you forever.

I want to help pave the way for women to feel that they can be human without judgement. And to help society understand, accept, and embrace it.

And that concludes my feminist rant for today! Thanks for listening and happy running! 🙂